Simply Me

Back to the drawing board? NO, this time I have accepted where I am suppose to be in life. Exactly where I am, working for myself, in my own home, following my own set of rules and being happy. As many jobs as I've had none of them compare to the feeling I have when I am writing and pouring out my soul. Yes, the 9-5 job pay the bills but to what cost? Losing my sanity, my morals and the stress causing havoc on my body; I don't think so. The 9-5 jobs are NOT for me.

 

I hate to say this but I believe I have issues with people who behave like they know EVERYTHING (not saying I do because I truly do not) and I emphasize on that word because that's exactly what I mean they really believe they do. It's sad. I have difficulties working with people who just don't "get it". How can you reach a certain age in life and not know how to type or use a computer? Somewhere down your years technology improved, you had to have know a computer would be the way of the world. Shit even my 75 year old mom knows how to use one and asked me for an Ipad to surf the web. WTH?

 

I said it once, I'll say it again when you put a bunch of women together and expect them to get along. They will, for a minute, once you turn your back the gossiping comes about. It's human nature and unfortunately is what happens amongst any & the majority of women. I want no part of it because in order to be welcomed I find myself becoming a part of it. NO thank you. It seems I have issues also being told what to do and how to feel. "Never mind if it's right, do your job, put on a poker face & keep smiling." NOT. If it's one thing in life I've learned it's to never be told hide my real feelings about something. Perhaps this is my problem, whatever the case may be I will not allow anyone to tell me how I am suppose to feel on things, people, places or issues or do what I feel is not right; in order to keep a job.

 

Writing in the privacy of my home at my own speed (except when I have a deadline) I am at my happiest. No one tells me how, who, what, when or what to do, say or feel. I write what I FEEL & what I know about.  The magazine I write for pays me (not enough to make a daily living) but it's something. I have a second book that will be coming out in January being a self-published author has it's risks but once again I chose the same motto for myself. I CONTROL what I write & feel not any company or agent telling me how & what to do.

 

I will NOT have any christmas this year but I have a roof over my head, clothes on my back, food on my table and no more headaches; those alone are blessings. I hold on tight with my undying faith in GOD that he will put me in the path to financial success when he wants me too. Until then I remain an at home free-lance writer & author with a happy mind, body & soul.

 

I will prevail one day, yet it feels like I have in many ways by remaining to be Simply Me...... )0(