Take a break!

 The past few weeks have been quite mentally exhausting for me. The only way I found to recharge was by attending a concert of my favorite performer, which proved to be an enjoyable and much needed break. However, I recognize that my body is feeling the effects, and my mind is overwhelmed. 

Allow me to vent: There are certain situations I can no longer or do not wish to be involved in, as they present a conflict of interest for me. It’s similar to having strong regard for someone but disliking some of their actions. This is where I find myself at this point in time. I am uncertain about the next steps, but I have decided to focus on what brings me happiness. I am sharing this with you in hopes of gaining clarity and support as many of you have given me.

I must remind myself to let go and leave things be when they aren’t meant to be. It’s so hard to accept, but deep down, I believe that everything will fall into place in the end. Maybe not in the way I envisioned or hoped for, but I have an unshakable faith that, somehow, it will all work out.

During these difficult days, I feel a deep ache in my heart for the absence of my dear coworker someone who was more than just a colleague, she was my comfort & my confidante. Even at her young age, she offered a wisdom that astounded me, a warmth that made every burden seem lighter. She was a beautiful soul, shining brightly with kindness and understanding. Whatever storm I was facing, she had this incredible gift she could make me see the truth more clearly, give me strength when I needed it most. I know she's just a phone call or text away, but in the chaos of my busy life, I find myself only reaching out with a simple "What Up," longing for the connection that brought me peace. Her absence leaves a void that words cannot fill, a bittersweet reminder of the precious bond we shared.

In moments like these, when the world feels so heavy and the weight threatens to crush me, I must summon every ounce of strength to remind myself: I am deserving of love and care. I refuse to let the pressure push me to the brink, to let feelings of defeat and failure drown out my spirit. I hold onto hope, fiercely and passionately, and remind myself above all, that I must prioritize me, my well-being, and my resilience. FK trying to give my best and accept when my mind and body demand rest.

I was listening to this song on the radio, and it felt as if it had been created just for me, igniting a fire deep within my soul. In that moment, I was compelled driven to reach for my keyboard and pour out my raw, unfiltered emotions. Through the tears and the words, I rediscovered my strength, found the courage to face a new day. I know now that I must hold these words close, embody them, carve them into my mind and heart because my body and spirit crave rest and healing. With that truth burning brightly in my soul, I end this blog with solid belief: I COME FIRST. I MATTER. I'm standing strong, confident in who I am, totally unbreakable.

Til Tomorrow... )0(