Still holding onto my faith.

If it's not one thing it's another. No matter how many steps I move forward;somehow, someway or someone always pushes me back a few more. It's ok I have been knocked down several times in my life and just pick myself up & keep saying "That's all you got?" If starting over means from scratch, hell no, I will start from where I left off.  I have not come this far to be pushed all the way back.

The time & day will come when I will be where I deserve to be because I've earned it. I am here now because I chose to follow my heart by doing what makes me the happiest. So, because of that I am to be reprimanded? I finally gave in & left the employment world to focus on my writing. Today, well about an hour ago I received a letter in the mail that has left me in turmoil. 

My blog page is called Venting Virally for that reason & share much with the world. My life is an open book & can honestly care less at this point how people think of me. I wish I could write what just happened; Only I cannot share the contents of this letter. Let's put it this way. I am appauled, stunned & totally lost at what to do next in my life. I feel like "financially" I am at a standstill, like I have been frozen & can't move.  I sit here typing with tears rolling down my face. I've accepted the issue at hand & know that there is an option;however that option is going to leave me penniless from this moment on. Everything I have always worked for my whole life I have done the legal way (well, except when I thought I was Camelia la Tejana-inside joke) will be taken from me. I don't understand why this is happening to me. All I do know is that I cannot change it.

I will go see a public defender to help me because I won't even be able to afford private legal counseling; somehow, someway I will get through this. No, I didn't commit any murders or robberies; although a part of me does have much anger in me towards the people who are doing this to me. It's ok, only god is to judge you; not I.  I WILL SURVIVE. I have FAITH that I will make it. I am strong, kind, sincere (yes, even if I don't show it) love & am loved by many & will come out on top kicking ass.

So, world, fans, readers, followers, when you see my links to any of my books, feel free to kindly SUPPORT this freelance writer in any way you see fit; wether its purchasing my books or simply saying hello to know you care...

These people can take every penny I have earned & have; but they cannot & will never take away my books & my writing. Even though they broke my wallet & bank, they will NEVER break my heart & soul for what I do best from my heart for all of you.....

I will wipe my tears away, put this letter away, go see the lawyer next week and just try to enjoy MY BIRTHDAY TOMORROW.....

Thanks for listening today's vent.............................................................Neena44