So, I have picked myself up and decided to wipe my tears away. Yes, I think I'm done crying. I'm done eating pints of ice cream & listening to sad music. I think what's helping me at this precise moment is that I'm jammin to my Tejano Music !!. Of course a song called "Para Que" which means "What for" is playing & inspiring me to say, YES, What for? Why did you make me believe in a love that was never mine?" Irony.. LoL.
Oh well. I can honestly say at this moment I have a BOOST of energy in my heart & soul. A ray of new light shined on me. A few days ago I felt so alone & lost in my own thoughts. I couldn't even get a sentence typed up. I don't know how I did it or how long it will last but I feel like right now I'm on a mission to fuckin conquer everything I want & DESERVE in life!!! I believe God has heard my prayers to lift the weight of the world off my shoulders. Whatever happens in my life from this day forward it's what god wants because I seeked him out & confessed my worries, heartache & dreams to him. If they come true or not it's ok. All I know is that to feel much better than I did the past few days is a great feeling to know God held me at my low moments. Not getting religious here but just had to say that.
My BFF gave me a few links to look into to help me raise/earn money while I finish my second book. I will retry that again later today. I don't like hand outs, I've always earned my way through life. Although at this moment I will use all strategies necessary. Things will change for the better I'm sure. Sooner or Later; I have faith it will. I also have made several changes in myself that ALREADY has my soul feeling like its shining!
I was given a phone, new # by someone least expected; don't think it was given to earn points but the thought was generous; that's all I can say on that. So, I will not & can't give out this # to anyone but family. I also applied for a position I never thought that I would in my lifetime. A manager position; let's see how that goes. I figured if I aim high I will succeed high.. Why not; it's not like I have anything else to lose.. lol.
I spoke with my daddy yesterday (Yes I'm a daddy's girl) & he always finds a way to make me laugh. I also talked with my Vieja today over an hour; god she didn't stop talking about everyone & everything; but enjoyed EVERY minute of it.
My day is coming to an end. I had some difficulties on Facebook, don't know what that was all about; but whatever. All I can say is if I'm not blogging from here or writing from the magazines I write for, be careful to who you confirm your comments too. I always sign off with my signature; Neena44 )0(
Thanks for reading today.. Back to working on my book..... Caio........ Neena44 )0(
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