Never take life for granted

I vaguely remember images of that night. I had accepted the era of my ways. I took responsibility of my actions. Over time I had to learn to rid myself of the shame & guilt I felt. It took many years but had to do so; to free my heart, mind & soul from torment.

All those years ago; I feared life. I did not want to be part of it. I thought no one could ever understand what I felt at that time. It took something extremely overwhelming to occur to make me realize I needed help. The actions I took hurt many people but most of all I had damaged myself beyond recognition. I had to pick up the pieces and start anew.

Years went by as I learned of life’s ways. I learned to trust in the lords words. Learning to love him and understand to love myself. Many things slowly began to change in life. It seemed as if I was living in his kingdom where all was well. No. I had simply accepted him in my life and was redirected on a new path. This was my new beginning.

I woke up this morning wondering what my purpose in life was as I was staring at the sunrise. I quickly remembered my dream; which I rarely do. It was more like remembering my past. It had frightened me. I didn’t know what to make of it; so I chose not to. Until I walked over to my living room and the book I wrote suddenly fell off the shelf. Could that be the answer to my question? Right at that moment a ray of brightness hit my face. I knew in my heart it was the answer to my questions. I remembered “that day”.

Here I am sixteen years later standing before you today to tell you life can & does go on. I haven’t looked back at the drastic event that I had caused; until today. I remembered everything and cried. I gave praise to the lord for saving me and giving me the opportunity of a new life. I finally understood everything. The choices I’ve made brought me to be WHO I am today. It is through my writing that I am to help others. I may not know to which extent it is for each but for most it is the inspiration I have given to my readers. It’s to educate, comfort, and inspire all who feel lost, defeated. To let them know they are not alone.

I write on relationships due to all the unhealthy ones I was involved in. My goal was to help others learn & hope they do not fall into the same scenarios. My blog is me continuing to help myself as well as others in every facet that I am able to. My poems all come from deep within from pain & happiness. All short stories & books I write are for everyone to simply enjoy and or connect with; all through my writing. This is my purpose in life.

A new beginning was given to me years ago. I learned from my mistakes. I accepted him in my life. I was given love, patience & understanding as I gave it all to him. There is not a day that goes by that I am not grateful for all who are in & all that I have in life.

“That day” I thought I was not being heard. I was. At this moment I realized I was saved & blessed with life to write about it. So, with all this said; learn from your mistakes, never allow yourself to be a victim of your own mind. Never take life for granted…