Losing Focus

Have you ever lost focus on something important in your life? I know that sounds wrong in some ways but it does happen. I feel that so many people do or have. I have been and I am really upset with myself. I don't know which way to turn. Sometimes I need to say "No, I can't do it right now" instead of trying to do it all. I end up losing focus on other projects.

I've lost focus on what's important to me. The things that I love to do and give me the serenity I need sometimes. Is that selfish? I don't like being overwhelmed. As a matter of fact I DO NOT do well when feeling that way. Yet I still try to do so much for so many reasons. I just can't. I come home mentally brain fried. I wish there was a clone of me to do all the things I can't find the time to do.

I work all day a 9 to 5, come home to either cook dinner; sometimes dinner will be waiting for me. I have to finish some editing issues on my second book. Which has taken more time than I ever imagined it would. All because I want it a certain way. Then I have to return all the missed calls, messages and texts I can't accept during work hours. By the time I end up finishing things in my home I've lost my focus, strength and time to write an article or anything else. It's past 11pm, my husband wants attention as does my spoiled chihuahua who wants to play fetch at odd hours.

I am barely sleeping 6 hours all to wake up and start all over the next day. FOR THIS I AM GRATEFUL to do. Even when I lose my focus on the important things in life. I always remember to give thanks for waking up each and every day to continue to do so.

I am not complaining about my life, my time, my choices. I simply had to vent to regain where, what, when how I've lost focus of what's meaningful to me. My sanity, health and my writing.

So, with all this said, ranting and raving. I'm done. I know now what I need to do and shall go about what makes me be the best of me. It's no wonder he calls me Mr. Rip Van Winkle. lol

Goodnight all.