Several more weeks have gone by & must say I am physically doing better. I don't think many people understand what the thyroid gland does for the body. Wait I should say doesn't do (when it's not functioning well, surgically removed or radiated). It's not just a female issue both sexes have the gland.
Well I am up 100mg once a day now & getting my blood drawn every 4 weeks until the levels are normal again. I have noticed a huge difference with some of the withdrawal symptoms I was experiencing; they're fading away. My appetite is slowly decreasing to normality. I no longer wish to eat everything in my view. Everything else that comes with this disease is becoming more tolerable thanks to the synthroid. Soon my body will feel & look normal. The swelling (I call it) weight gain & water retention will go down. All will be well SOON, I have to keep telling myself that.
As I go for my morning walk (yes I do it) I sometimes take my diva Chihuahua with me, we walk around the entire school several times. I can't help but wonder on so many things that are going on in my life, my neighborhood, my family & the world. It's a lot to take in. All these thoughts running through my head lead me to concepts on future stories, articles & poems. Once I get back home, in front of the laptop I go blank. Writer's block it is somewhat uncomfortable to experience but somehow in time I'll get back on track.
I then begin to doubt myself as a writer. "What if no one reads or enjoys what I write?" Let's be honest if you're not writing or blogging about nonsense & gossip or social media; then no one cares or reads your blogs. So I sit back down, wondering all over again, wallow in self doubt & then it hits me. My blog is called Venting Virally for a reason. I write to vent what I'm feeling; it's a way of self healing. Why should I care if my writing is not pleasing anyone? If I have numerous followers or not? I write for myself & no one can take that away from me. If the public enjoys or shares anything of what I blog then I consider that to be an added bonus.
Sometimes I lose focus on why I started this whole blog & get caught up with all the hype I receive when I write my articles on Chicago Examiner. So I have decided to limit the amount of articles I write to once a month & stay on my path of what makes me happiest. Writing for myself. I must stay focused on my goals. I have emptied my friends list on (FB) & kept my fan page Neena44.
I am not sure if anyone else feels what I do but it seems as if this particular social media page has spun out of control. So many people seem angry with one another, bashing at each other, deleting & blocking one another, posting lies or stories about themselves or each other, fake profiles, food pics, biblical posts ETC ETC. For me it was disrupting my focus towards my goals (when I should be writing & instead reading what everyone else was up too). It was disturbing; it's not fun anymore. This is my opinion.
I want to stay on a positive level & view in life so I remove myself from all of that (except my fan page I use to promote my books). I will continue to write from my heart, for myself & for whomever likes to read what I write. So if you care to follow me here on my blog, simply subscribe with your email & you can always comment anonymously as well.
Till tomorrow............................ Neena44.... )0(................
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