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 $10 check or money order to
 PO BOX 32318
Chgo, Il 60632

Last night I had so much to write about, today I can't even think straight. I can't stop wondering if I am doing anything right? I finally signed up with google accounts as someone suggested; for those people who want to purchase my first book but don't want to go through the website. I became a merchant seller so if you have a GMAIL account you can pay through my checkout (link is on left side of this page) & I will ship book out to you.  You can also pay by CHECK or MONEY ORDER payable to H. ROCHA PO BOX 32318, CHGO, IL 60632 & I will also ship books out to you as soon as you send me address.

I'm not sure of how or what else I can do to earn my own income as I continue to focus on my 2nd book & articles. I said before that my partner insists on taking care of me & household, but in all reality I LIKE & NEED TO EARN MY OWN.  He believes in my writing & supports my dreams yet has made a comment here & there that I won't amount to much financially. How is that being supportive? I would love to one day show him "See, I did do it"..

A very dear friend gave me some great suggestions last week & I followed up on them only to be disappointed;but not knocked down. I am not feeling all that great this morning, have a slight headache & watery eyes and still trying to type. Every now & then I have take a break. I drank some tea and took some tylenol; hopefully will feel better later or tomorrow.

Everyone has & goes through frustrations & whatnots on a daily basis. Today I would just like to not worry for awhile. I have seen so many people around me lately suffering for more important things than my writing ups & downs. A close friend of mine lost his father, another is suffering physically. It makes me wonder about everything in life. Why we are here, Where are we supposed to end up? How do you get there? How does one survive every single day when there is so much hurt, anger, despair & bullshit in the world.

I close my eyes and pray as I try to find an answer to these questions in my head. The only thing that I see as I open them is a little light blue book placed on the coffee table in front of me. It's the bible. I have always hated when the "Church people" came knocking at my door, I hated people forcing their assemblies & groups (meetings) on me, I don't like going to a church & praying to a statue. Don't get me wrong. I DO believe in Jesus Christ & God. I just don't trust in the catholic religion or any for that matter for a long time. I TRUST IN HIM. Every single time I feel & need structure & guidance in my life I always end up speaking to him. I'm positive he is listening that's why I will never give up on faith that my prayers will be heard someday. Until then I keep working hard in everything I do.

Neena44 ..........)0(