Monday Blues?

It's only been a week and I can feel some change in my body. I have been eating extremely healthy. Well, not extremely; yet better. I've added more vegetables to my diet and eliminated all types of breads and sweets. I don't deprive my body of anything. I just eat a decent portion and indulge my sweet tooth with a healthy snack instead of junk I know is doing me harm.

As far as my medications. I am taking it day by day. I haven't put any "poison" as I see it; in my body for 8 days. Well, I can honestly say I do feel a bit more agitated lately. I have had some mood swings, one minute I can be as happy as a clown and few minutes later I'm crying for no reason. Like now.

I've been thinking about where I want to be in life and just can't seem to get there. I know I've come along way from where and who I was to who I am now. It's just today's reality of my current situations are hitting me hard.

This may not make any sense to anyone but me or some people who know me very well. I am fighting and life itself is taking a huge toll on me. I am not giving up. I refuse to go backwards. Although having stopped all medications I am a little frightened of what may happen if I don't take control. Which is what I am doing now. I'm Venting; I'm writing.

I have come up with another plan and I simply have to make sure that my body and mind can handle it all. All I can say is that at this particular moment I have shed my tears, wiped my face and will try to remain as positive as I have always been. I always smile through my pain and support all who hurt. Today was just a day that was as gloomy as they call "Monday Blues" but tomorrow will be a new day.

Thanks for reading, till tomorrow if I can find the time hopefully.