Lesson Learned

Well, I made it through the week. I have done 6 days straight of 1500 calories (allowing myself to go upto 1700) and have done really well. Ok, it was hard. I did the gym. First day was exciting and I took it slow and did 45 minutes and was proud of myself for not passing out. Quick pause. (what in the hell are these guys in the gym thinking) geez they look like they are "hard up" the way they stare the females down. It's no wonder why there is a "Women's section" in this gym. I went in the wrong are the first day, but on the next day I went directly there. Second time around I thought I was bad ass and put my workout clothes on, etc and got on the treadmill and completely forgot to clear the "speed level" on it, there I go doing my thing and after 20 minutes was feeling horrible, chest pain and out of breath. I'm like what the fuck? I look at the numbers and the speed was higher than my goal and the incline was set to high for me to catch up. I checked my heart rate and it was 144, ok I kept going and going. No way in hell was I going to make it to 45 minutes. I had to press the "cool down" button and slowly make it stop. I got off the machine caught my breath and got so light headed I thought I was going to faint. I sat on the floor, drank my water and after a few minutes I was ok.  Of course as I get up I made sure to look around to see if anyone was watching. lol

I was determined to get my 45 min in. I got on a bicycle and rode it for another 20 minutes, pretty good until I decided to be a badass again. I was watching this female on this climbing machine, she had a very high ass and tight abs. (All I could think to myself was, hey I want my ass to look like hers, I think I will try that machine.)  Like a dumbass I get on (not realizing the girl who just got off is watching me) and went at my own pace. OH MY GOD, I thought I was climbing a mountain with 3 backpacks on me. I kept pushing myself to finish my time and I guess I was breathing hard (I had my Ipod on) when the girl stands next to me and says "Slow you're breathing, calm down, inhale and exhale slowly." I had no idea what she was saying cuz the music. My time was up I did it. I climbed off the machine and she told me again same thing and she asked if I was ok. I replied Thank You yes, I will be. 

 

I grabbed my things and walked away, got in my car , came home showered and went to sleep. I woke up next day feeling like someone hit me in the chest with a brick and literally kicked me under my ass. NO PAIN, NO GAIN. Next day, still doing the calorie intake (It realy is hard because lots of times I just want to eat a fuckin cupcake or a big ol wendy's cheeseburger) I manage it pretty well, went back to gym, started same routine and did a full 45 minutes on treadmill. Yeah I burned some calories thinking I can have a treat (like I'm a dog or something) lol.  I got home showered and was excited that I can eat something to delicious. I sat down on my bed and passed out. So much for my snack.

 

Next day, same routine, except trying to do the bike thing again & I ended up pulling a muscle in my leg. Geez does that hurt. I couldn't walk. It cramped up bad. Ok enough I keep messing these workouts up. Same girl was there and came to me and asked if I was ok? No, I hurt, she helped me a little and said, "You know if you're new at this, you should really consider asking for help. Hmm, story of my life; too proud to ask for anything. So, I thanked this woman once again and went on my way.

 

I learned my lesson and will go back to gym tomorrow and will now have a personal trainer since none of my friends want to join me. I won't give up... Oh and yeah It's weekend and I so desperately want to have a few beers, but then what would the workouts be good for? Oh well, my heart is more important.. Goodnight world...

 

Neena44