It's been several weeks since I have last blogged. I have been struggling with (let's say) a problem; with the help of family & friends I am back on my feet. So well on my feet I went dancing this past weekend & felt more alive than my body & mind have allowed me too. Thank You to that very special person who made me "Tingle"...
This past week was extremely overwhelming; with the shoulders of support I got through it; However do understand & have accepted that this is only the beginning. I will do everything I can to improve the situation but in the end it's not my decision to see which road will be taken. I can & will pray my heart out..
This may not make sense to many but to most it will. This week left a huge whole in my heart and in time I'm sure it will mend. I have realized much things in the past few days. I may not show my love very well; but all who know me, know that I do. I express myself through writing; where no one can stare in my face & laugh or criticize my emotions. I see now that the apple doesn't fall far from the tree. One uses tattoos as a form of self inflicting pain & remains in silence throughout life. Another uses drugs & alcohol to bury the anguish. Now that all has been out; I wish I can change the past but cannot. The time for healing the pain & moving forward is here and now; better days are coming. (This is all I can say on that)
I have taken some minutes today to reflect on my needs as well as trying to fix others. I began reminicing of a particular moment in my life where I felt complete happiness. I closed my eyes and remembered the touch & scent of you near me whispering your love for me will always be in me; all I had to do was "feel it." It was that moment I felt alive again inside... Here I am writing for everyone again. I did not need to remember those words or the person who said them to me to feel this way; nevertheless it gave me such a joy to feel it; in more ways than one..
Till next time.................................................. Neena44
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